Tonight at 5PM I walked out of Emmanuel College, one of the Toronto School of Theology Seminaries, where I have been studying for nearly three years. I walked out for the last time. The count down has begun as I finished the first of five remaining days at Seminary.
By the time I got home I was in tears. Tears of exhaustion and joy. Tears of fear and of accomplishment. I have done well at school and know there is a future in either a PhD or a DMin, just not right away. I feel very sad. I simply will not know what to do with myself on December 6th!
So where is my life heading? For the past six years, I have been on a path to becoming a pastor and it looks like I am almost there-just in time to want to run as far away as possible.
I simply am too much of a goof ball to really be a pastor, but then, when I think of doing something else I know I simply couldn't. Every ounce of my being wants to serve in God's Kingdom in a congregational setting-so now I just need to trust that this "calling" I received when I was so little, this calling that has been formed and shaped by the Holy Spirit is ready to take flight.
Day one count down is complete and I only have used half a box of kleenex, pretty good for me. But we still have to get through next week.
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