By April 8th we had told our family and friends about baby Schmidt, some were scared for us, others talked of miracles and joy and others were simply not sure what to say, especially when they heard our horror story of her beginning...
By now I had also begun to lose a great deal of weight and had put myself on a naturopathic diabetic diet. I was in full swing in the doctor rotation of the Bruce County medical care which other then Dr. Debbie Dyke who is a great doctor, I was not impressed with...
I was in conflict with the diabetic specialist who seemed to only be able to repeat information from the Canadian Diabetic Association which I reject. She even once said in a phone call to me that, "I was endangering my baby with my beliefs". She also told me "she did not believe any studies existed on the use of glyberide/metformin over insulin"-thus began two months of fighting (I am pretty sure I won) since I did not get gestational diabetes during this pregnancy nor preclampsi, both of which she insisted I would get...
The April rain showers came in the from of medical staff that insisted on putting me a "box". What I have come to realize is that they are incapable of thinking out of the boxes they working in--one visit at the endocrinologists ended with him saying to me, that he had returned from a conference where most of the topics had to do with use of metformin over insulin , "but that he liked insulin as it was old fashion and they were comfortable with it" Okay answer for him, but dead wrong and no where good enough an answer for me and this is btw my baby and my life and I happen to be down 40 pounds, so no I will not go on insulin nor even remotely follow your high carb diet, if I ain't spilling ketones then I don't need to eat 45 grams of carbs -way to high!
April also brought Easter and a full work schedule along with telling the church btw I am pregnant after 16 years of marriage and never being able to conceive, surprise! Fortuetly, they rejoiced for us!
Saturday, October 29, 2011
March Lent Madness
As Baptists we do not traditionally celebrate Lent, but this past year the "giving up" of something took on a whole new meaning for me. I felt like I was sacrificing my whole life for this child I still did not want, nor love. Lent came along with it my responsibilities to do extra services in the community and I was so sick with all day "morning sickness" and exhaustion I am still not sure how I got through the days. Did I also mention that Wiarton was facing it's worse winter since 1999? Lent for me this year taught me about real sacrifice. I was now having to sacrifice so very much to keep this little child alive and well. You see I am almost 40, diabetic and hypertensive and with all the doom and gloom news about this baby actually making it and what I was going to have to do to keep her I nearly lost my mind, except for what Lent meant to me and the sacrifices Jesus made on my behalf and on behalf of the world.
Lent has to do with the forty days Jesus spent in the wilderness preparing for His ministry by facing the temptations that could lead him to abandon his mission and calling. Christians today use this period of time for introspection, self examination, and repentance. that was what I was needing to do and in due time I did. what God spoke to me about was what was coming, my health care, the baby's health care, working steady and strong at my job, trusting God to give Paul a job (he was unemployed for the first nine months we were here), trusting God through the winter and learning to really lean on God for all the scary thoughts going through my mind--what I had to give up was the usual: trust in my ways and lean not on my own understanding, but acknowledge God's ways and trust in Him. what I was learning is that something bigger then me was coming-it was on the horizon in the form of a baby and I was going to need every ounce of trust and faith in God that I had to get through and that meant giving myself and my ways up...
Lent has to do with the forty days Jesus spent in the wilderness preparing for His ministry by facing the temptations that could lead him to abandon his mission and calling. Christians today use this period of time for introspection, self examination, and repentance. that was what I was needing to do and in due time I did. what God spoke to me about was what was coming, my health care, the baby's health care, working steady and strong at my job, trusting God to give Paul a job (he was unemployed for the first nine months we were here), trusting God through the winter and learning to really lean on God for all the scary thoughts going through my mind--what I had to give up was the usual: trust in my ways and lean not on my own understanding, but acknowledge God's ways and trust in Him. what I was learning is that something bigger then me was coming-it was on the horizon in the form of a baby and I was going to need every ounce of trust and faith in God that I had to get through and that meant giving myself and my ways up...
February Blues
4 months into a new life and new job we found out we were pregnant. That experience alone was enough to try a marriage of 16 years, but alas here we are at 38 weeks and i am finally getting a chance to ponder and look back at where we have come from.
Theologically speaking, this has been the greatest season of trust I have ever experienced, beginning with waking up covered in blood, rushing to one hospital only to discover no one was available to do an ultra sound and then being sent (driving in our own car) to another hospital to wait for hours and then have a doctor pretty much dismiss us by saying the"baby was probably dead, low heart rate, not normal size", etc.. and sent us on our way. TRUST, for what I was not sure... TRUST, in who, that was easy, God, revealed in Jesus was the only person that would get me through the next few days until we had another ultra sound that proved just how wrong that doctor had been.
Over the next month, February blues took on a whole new meaning as we went through an emotional roller coaster that no one should have gone through. We were told twice the baby was dead and each time I was relieved believing this was all a mistake and God was taking care of something that was not right, only to be told days later she (after more ultra sounds) was well--I cried then. I did not want this situation or this child. I did not want to be on this roller-coaster. I wanted to work at my new job and work hard. I wanted the life we were starting in Wiarton and a baby was not part of that plan-If i was going to have a baby I wanted it 15 years ago, back in Toronto with my family and friends around. February blues finally meant something... and God was asking way too much from me... What little did I know, He was going to ask more of me and it all had to do with trust!
Theologically speaking, this has been the greatest season of trust I have ever experienced, beginning with waking up covered in blood, rushing to one hospital only to discover no one was available to do an ultra sound and then being sent (driving in our own car) to another hospital to wait for hours and then have a doctor pretty much dismiss us by saying the"baby was probably dead, low heart rate, not normal size", etc.. and sent us on our way. TRUST, for what I was not sure... TRUST, in who, that was easy, God, revealed in Jesus was the only person that would get me through the next few days until we had another ultra sound that proved just how wrong that doctor had been.
Over the next month, February blues took on a whole new meaning as we went through an emotional roller coaster that no one should have gone through. We were told twice the baby was dead and each time I was relieved believing this was all a mistake and God was taking care of something that was not right, only to be told days later she (after more ultra sounds) was well--I cried then. I did not want this situation or this child. I did not want to be on this roller-coaster. I wanted to work at my new job and work hard. I wanted the life we were starting in Wiarton and a baby was not part of that plan-If i was going to have a baby I wanted it 15 years ago, back in Toronto with my family and friends around. February blues finally meant something... and God was asking way too much from me... What little did I know, He was going to ask more of me and it all had to do with trust!
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Heat Wave 2011
Apparently in Toronto in 2009 there were no summer days over 30 degrees, this year there have been over 13 days of horrific heat!
here is how Malachi deals...
VBS
I cannot say enough about our church volunteers and my friend Colleen who is our Sunday School Coordinator. Our first VBS in years was a great sucess... Thanks to all who served!
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
Ordination service
The Ordination Service
Of
Pamela Carol Fitkin
By
Frank Street Baptist Church
May 14, 2001
Prelude: Jean Harris
Processional Duet Adele Marie Diffey (Pamela’s Spiritual Sister)
Call to Worship Denise Roeveled (Beloved Friend of Pamela’s)
Hymn of Approach: # 596 “I Surrender All” verses 1,2,4, only
Prayer of Invocation: Bob Janse (Chair of Board of Management)
Introductory Statement Nancy Matches (Deacon)
We are assembled in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, at the request of this Church, and as representatives of the Owen Sound Association of Baptist Churches of Canadian Baptists of Ontario and Quebec, in order that we may appoint Pamela Carol Fitkin to the office and work of Pastoral Ministry.
Pamela Fitkin presented herself to an Ordination Examining Council on Saturday May 7, 2001. Delegates from this Church and the Owen Sound Association, met together at Frank Street Baptist Church to consider the suitability of setting apart Pamela Carol Fitkin to the Pastoral Ministry. We heard her statement of Christian experience, call to ministry, views of Christian doctrine and her relationship to our denomination.
After careful deliberation and prayer the examining council voted and it was unanimous in favour that Pamela Carol Fitkin be Ordained to the Pastoral ministry. We are gathered happily together tonight to respond to their decision.
Special Music: MaryWinn Daykin (Deacon)
Scripture Reading: Harold Hetherington (Dear Friend of Pamela’s)
II Corinthians 2:14 to 3:6, 17, 18 and James 1:2-4
Sermon: “Growth Towards Spiritual Maturity” The Reverend John Torrance (Pamela’s Spiritual Father)
Hymn: # 527 “I Know Whom I have believed”
Introduction of The Ordinand: Bob Janse
Moderators Address to The Ordinand: Pastor Kenneth Craig
Moderator: Pamela Fitkin, We have gladly heard of the Grace of God in your life, and of the desire of this Church to set you apart for the ministry of the Gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ as an ordained minister. We exhort you, therefore, to consider once more the sacredness of this Office to which you are to be set apart, that with sincerity of purpose, integrity and holiness of life, and humble dependence upon God, you may fulfill the same, remembering that our Lord Jesus Christ said: “If any want to become my followers, let them deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.”
So also the Apostle Paul did say to young pastor Timothy: “In the Presence of God and of Jesus Christ.... I solemnly urge you: proclaim the Word; be persistent whether the time is favourable or unfavourable; convince; rebuke; and encourage, with utmost patience in teaching and do your best to present yourself to God as one approved by Him, a worker who has no need to be ashamed, rightly explaining the Word of Truth.”
And from the Apostle Peter we receive also this commission: “Tend the flock of God that is in your charge, exercising the oversight, not under compulsion but willingly, as God would have you do it, not for sordid gain, but eagerly. Do not lord it over those in your charge, but be examples to the flock.”
Moderators Inquiry of The Ordinand: Pamela, do you affirm your determination to give your life to the ministry of Jesus Christ, in accordance with the principles of ministry set forth in the Word of God?
The Ordinand Responds: I will endeavour to do so, the Lord being my helper.
Moderator’s Inquiry of Congregation Moderator: Do you the members of this Church, acknowledge and affirm the gifts and abilities of Pamela Fitkin, to fulfill the ministry to which she has been called? Are you prepared to set apart Pamela Fitkin to this God honouring ministry? Do you covenant together with her giving her all her help in the Lord? If you are so willing will you signify your assent by standing before the Lord with Pamela Carol Fitkin in this moment of consecration and ordination?
(Members of the Ordaining Church stand)
In keeping with the New Testament practice, the setting apart of Pamela Carol Fitkin for the Pastoral Ministry will take place by the Laying on of Hands and a prayer of Ordination.
Would those duly assigned please come forward to participate in the Laying on of Hands.
Prayer of Ordination (The Lord’s Prayer said, in Unison): The Reverend John Torrance
Hymn of Assurance: #572 BlessedAssurance
Right Hand of Fellowship: Pastor Kenneth Craig
In the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, on behalf of this Congregation of Believers, by the authority of the Ordination Examining Council, and on behalf of Canadian Baptists of Ontario and Quebec, I now extend to you the Right Hand of Fellowship into the PastoralMinistry. Receive this ministry of the Gospel and the care and cure of souls, which is both ours and yours.
Presentation of CBOQ Certificate of Ordination: Pastor Kenneth Craig
Presentation of Bible from CBOQ: The Reverend John Torrance
Benediction: The Reverend Pamela Carol Fitkin
Of
Pamela Carol Fitkin
By
Frank Street Baptist Church
May 14, 2001
Prelude: Jean Harris
Processional Duet Adele Marie Diffey (Pamela’s Spiritual Sister)
Call to Worship Denise Roeveled (Beloved Friend of Pamela’s)
Hymn of Approach: # 596 “I Surrender All” verses 1,2,4, only
Prayer of Invocation: Bob Janse (Chair of Board of Management)
Introductory Statement Nancy Matches (Deacon)
We are assembled in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, at the request of this Church, and as representatives of the Owen Sound Association of Baptist Churches of Canadian Baptists of Ontario and Quebec, in order that we may appoint Pamela Carol Fitkin to the office and work of Pastoral Ministry.
Pamela Fitkin presented herself to an Ordination Examining Council on Saturday May 7, 2001. Delegates from this Church and the Owen Sound Association, met together at Frank Street Baptist Church to consider the suitability of setting apart Pamela Carol Fitkin to the Pastoral Ministry. We heard her statement of Christian experience, call to ministry, views of Christian doctrine and her relationship to our denomination.
After careful deliberation and prayer the examining council voted and it was unanimous in favour that Pamela Carol Fitkin be Ordained to the Pastoral ministry. We are gathered happily together tonight to respond to their decision.
Special Music: MaryWinn Daykin (Deacon)
Scripture Reading: Harold Hetherington (Dear Friend of Pamela’s)
II Corinthians 2:14 to 3:6, 17, 18 and James 1:2-4
Sermon: “Growth Towards Spiritual Maturity” The Reverend John Torrance (Pamela’s Spiritual Father)
Hymn: # 527 “I Know Whom I have believed”
Introduction of The Ordinand: Bob Janse
Moderators Address to The Ordinand: Pastor Kenneth Craig
Moderator: Pamela Fitkin, We have gladly heard of the Grace of God in your life, and of the desire of this Church to set you apart for the ministry of the Gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ as an ordained minister. We exhort you, therefore, to consider once more the sacredness of this Office to which you are to be set apart, that with sincerity of purpose, integrity and holiness of life, and humble dependence upon God, you may fulfill the same, remembering that our Lord Jesus Christ said: “If any want to become my followers, let them deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.”
So also the Apostle Paul did say to young pastor Timothy: “In the Presence of God and of Jesus Christ.... I solemnly urge you: proclaim the Word; be persistent whether the time is favourable or unfavourable; convince; rebuke; and encourage, with utmost patience in teaching and do your best to present yourself to God as one approved by Him, a worker who has no need to be ashamed, rightly explaining the Word of Truth.”
And from the Apostle Peter we receive also this commission: “Tend the flock of God that is in your charge, exercising the oversight, not under compulsion but willingly, as God would have you do it, not for sordid gain, but eagerly. Do not lord it over those in your charge, but be examples to the flock.”
Moderators Inquiry of The Ordinand: Pamela, do you affirm your determination to give your life to the ministry of Jesus Christ, in accordance with the principles of ministry set forth in the Word of God?
The Ordinand Responds: I will endeavour to do so, the Lord being my helper.
Moderator’s Inquiry of Congregation Moderator: Do you the members of this Church, acknowledge and affirm the gifts and abilities of Pamela Fitkin, to fulfill the ministry to which she has been called? Are you prepared to set apart Pamela Fitkin to this God honouring ministry? Do you covenant together with her giving her all her help in the Lord? If you are so willing will you signify your assent by standing before the Lord with Pamela Carol Fitkin in this moment of consecration and ordination?
(Members of the Ordaining Church stand)
In keeping with the New Testament practice, the setting apart of Pamela Carol Fitkin for the Pastoral Ministry will take place by the Laying on of Hands and a prayer of Ordination.
Would those duly assigned please come forward to participate in the Laying on of Hands.
Prayer of Ordination (The Lord’s Prayer said, in Unison): The Reverend John Torrance
Hymn of Assurance: #572 BlessedAssurance
Right Hand of Fellowship: Pastor Kenneth Craig
In the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, on behalf of this Congregation of Believers, by the authority of the Ordination Examining Council, and on behalf of Canadian Baptists of Ontario and Quebec, I now extend to you the Right Hand of Fellowship into the PastoralMinistry. Receive this ministry of the Gospel and the care and cure of souls, which is both ours and yours.
Presentation of CBOQ Certificate of Ordination: Pastor Kenneth Craig
Presentation of Bible from CBOQ: The Reverend John Torrance
Benediction: The Reverend Pamela Carol Fitkin
Ordination Council Prayer
Prayer of Invocation for Pamela’s Council Exam
Almighty God, We acknowledge you as our Father, King, Redeemer, Comforter and Friend. There is no other God before you. You are the God of Adam, Noah, Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Moses. You are the Most High Father of Jesus of Nazareth and we have come to know you more because of your revelation in and through Jesus. Heavenly Father, we have come into your house tonight to praise and glorify you. We have come as the body of believers and therefore we know you are in our midst. Father as this evening continues grant an extra measure of peace on all those involved and grant Pamela a profound awareness of your presence as we celebrate who you are as her God and our God. We invoke your name in all we do, say, sing and pray about. In Jesus name, Amen
Almighty God, We acknowledge you as our Father, King, Redeemer, Comforter and Friend. There is no other God before you. You are the God of Adam, Noah, Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Moses. You are the Most High Father of Jesus of Nazareth and we have come to know you more because of your revelation in and through Jesus. Heavenly Father, we have come into your house tonight to praise and glorify you. We have come as the body of believers and therefore we know you are in our midst. Father as this evening continues grant an extra measure of peace on all those involved and grant Pamela a profound awareness of your presence as we celebrate who you are as her God and our God. We invoke your name in all we do, say, sing and pray about. In Jesus name, Amen
My Ordination
April 24, 2011
Dear Friends,
Frank Street Baptist Church, Wiarton is pleased to announce their intentions to Ordain Pamela Carol Fitkin to Pastoral Ministry. Pamela is currently serving as their Pastor and they are delighted to have gone through this Ordination process with her.
You are hereby invited to attend the Ordination Ceremony of Pamela C. Fitkin at Frank Street Baptist Church, Wiarton on Saturday May 14, 2011 at 5:30PM. A light supper will follow.
The church is located at 356 Frank Street in Wiarton, Ontario. The church telephone number is 519-534-0463, should you have any questions.
We look forward to this very special day and to your attending.
Sincerely, (Church Clerk)
Mary Jane Monahan
Dear Friends,
Frank Street Baptist Church, Wiarton is pleased to announce their intentions to Ordain Pamela Carol Fitkin to Pastoral Ministry. Pamela is currently serving as their Pastor and they are delighted to have gone through this Ordination process with her.
You are hereby invited to attend the Ordination Ceremony of Pamela C. Fitkin at Frank Street Baptist Church, Wiarton on Saturday May 14, 2011 at 5:30PM. A light supper will follow.
The church is located at 356 Frank Street in Wiarton, Ontario. The church telephone number is 519-534-0463, should you have any questions.
We look forward to this very special day and to your attending.
Sincerely, (Church Clerk)
Mary Jane Monahan
January Ice
Living in Wiarton has taught me much about winter in Ontario-I will never complain about winter in Toronto after living here. One thing I really struggled with was the lack of sunshine after 4PM...
NOVEMBER a new job
It seems like I have waited my whole life for this moment and although I have been a Pastor for a very long time, here I am now in my first church-Thanks Be To God
We Moved to Wiarton
October 18, 2010 had us land in our new home and town. Here we are in WIARTON WOO HOO
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