Many of you know I have been traveling through a spiritually dark season, this past year. I have been living in and through Psalm 88 with glimpses of Psalm 20, 46 and 51 throughout. This dark season prevented me from doing any writing and that has been a terrible, terrible loss and deep struggle fοr me.
This entry is my first, now that this season has ended and I invite you as I continue to recuperate from being in the pit, to join me in a new season. It is windy coming out of the pit into the field, but the wind is teaching me things, some I have forgotten and something very new.
I wish I could share with you how the season of darkness ended, but that is between me and God. I do know that I have His permission to share why I entered a season of darkness, but that is a story for another time. Until then, listen to the wind.
With my love,
Pamela
Sometimes In The Wind
Sometimes in the wind I feel and sense things. I hear whispers. When I was a child I could see the wind in the trees, but now my eyes have grown cynical. But sometimes, I still hear and feel things.
The wind is my friend even when it is ferocious and freezing. The wind calls my name and I know God is speaking.
The wind is His tool, a machine of sorts, that purifies, scatters, directs and serves the creatures of the air and forces of earth. The wind destroys as well. Do you recall when the wind traveled with Moses? “Moses stretched forth his rod over the land of Egypt, and The Lord brought an east wind upon the land all that day and all that night; and when it was morning the east wind had brought the locusts." (Exodus 10:13)
Today in the wind I heard voices, someone calling my name. I whispered a prayer of protection as I knew intimately they, the voices were in danger. Their call was heard through the rustling and chatter of twigs and leaves. I felt alarmed at first as if I was being warned of great danger to come, but I knew it was a message for me to pray through and I did.
The wind speaks if one chooses to listen and to hear its wisdom.
The wind does as the Creator says. Do you remember the ancient stories of how the wind blew forth “over the earth and the waters subsided?” For this Noah gave great thanks. And the wind brings forth the things of nature, "The wind blows to the south, and goes round to the north; round and round goes the wind, and on its circuits the wind returns." (Ecclesiastes 1:6 "The north wind brings forth rain" (Proverbs 25:23).
The wind today, and all days reminds me of my faith. The wind is made and controlled by God and although it is something never to be worshiped it is something we can harness, or can we? Recall the story from the Gospel of Mark chapter 4, "And a great storm of wind arose, and the waves beat into the boat, so that the boat was already filling. But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they woke him and said to him, "Teacher, do you not care if we perish?" And he awoke and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, "Peace! Be still!" And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm."
The wind has been created for our good, even when a tempest is threatening to kills us, but we know who controls the wind so we know we can trust. And as W.O. Mitchell once said, “when the tress bow down their heads the wind is passing by”. But I have come to learn and to trust that when the tress are bowing in the wind it is because the Great God of our Saviour Jesus, is moving by.
May the wind of this new season be at my back...
