The Fall brought my third trimester-it was the most difficult time-I had a severe abscessed tooth, (which the Dentists said there was little they could do so i was put on an antibiotic that does not cross the placenta) painful carpel tunnel in both arms and a pregnancy rash that cover 90% of my body-I hated every moment of being pregnant. people kept telling me how beautiful I looked and how wonderful I was. I felt horrible everyday and very lonely. apart from all of that I also had a great sense of God's peace and presence. he was everywhere I went and in all situations reminding me of the joy that was coming.
During this time of anticipation I began to feel a strong sense that this little baby I was carrying was not mine. She utterly came form God and belonged to God-this was liberating, all the pressure of becoming a mom soon disappeared and i was left with this extreme joy that Paul and I were given the responsibility of caring for this little human that God desired and had a plan for... It was the beginning of my true spiritual adventure as a mother... THANKS BE TO GOD
No comments:
Post a Comment